This IS IT!

AAAHHH YEAH! Baby! I saw it the Michael Jackson “This is it” and wow blew me away. Confession I have a theory (I have a lot of theories-don’t even get me started on men walking on the moon)this theory consists of –MJ really didn’t die that he faked his death and is living it up on some deserted island sipping pinacoladas and doing the moon walk. But once I saw this movie I changed my mind a little bit... Maybe he did die after all? And maybe he wasn’t such a weirdo? I understand him a little more. I was born the latter part of the eighties so I grew up with the creepy Michael... the Michael that held his baby over the railing and may or may not have done some sketchy things in never land(If ya know what I mean) so if you care to read here are my observations of the film:
1-He is very very very skinny he wore tight orange skinny jeans and boy did they show of his little legs.
2-Goes along with #1 his poor body. It‘s uncomfortable to look at, his nose looked like clay and his whole face looks really gross.
3- His hair is still unattractive pulled back perm “That’s so boss!”
4-He can move like no other! I have never been so jealous of someone’s dance moves I so wish I could dance like that.
5-He truly was a talented artist he had no chorographer he was the show and he knew exactly how to conduct it, he kept saying “let it Simmer” after a dance move…I think I will start saying that after I say things… or after I do something crazy …or Maybe after a kiss;)
6-He still talked like a high pitched school girl but very kind to everyone also Kept saying” God bless you” maybe I will start saying that ….especially after a kiss Ha!
7- He’s still got it! All his classic songs..Yep still sounded great! I have had Billy Jean stuck in my head all day!
8-I feel bad for him I think he just wanted to live a normal life and He never got that opportunity.
9-It’s a true pity this final performance was never performed it was going to be amazing from fire on the stage to fireworks to acrobats…A-MAZING!
10 -And probably one of my favorite things about the show was one of the musicians (trumpet player) was named Mo pleasure HA! Coolest name ever.

Faith or a lack there of….

Sometimes life is just not fair, sometimes it’s really not fair, sometimes you feel like you can’t pull yourself out of bed and take on another day. Sometimes life is so confusing you have no idea which way you are coming or going, Sometimes you feel like you are left in the dark with no flash light, AND sometimes you have to have faith that there is light just around the corner. Having faith has always been hard for me mostly because I’m a quitter I will admit it. I am I don’t like to do things that are hard, in fact I hate, despises even loath doing things that are hard that’s why I quit having faith its way to hard. I hate the feeling of failure or heartache or uncertainty therefore I will avoid it at any cost, and therefore it is hard for me to have faith that the hard things will work themselves out. This describes my life currently I have had a big week of learning experiences a big week of thinking I could not possibly pull myself out of bed and proceed on with life, I felt like I was left alone in my own Gethsemane…Then I remembered there is one who has been there one who has felt this, one who has literally been in Gethsemane one who was left alone in the most desperate hour of need ,and I remembered there is hope that there is a plan that there is a way. There is a way but no where is it written that it will be easy. and that’s where faith comes into play Just when you think that the lord has left you in your hour of need he gives you a glimmer of hope …a moment of happiness a reason to live be happy and proceed and that faith pays off and a teeny tiny piece of my heart is mended but in no way is it close to being back together. I think for maybe the first time in my life I truly understand the atonement I understand how families can have peace when a love one has passed, I understand forgiveness for someone who has deeply wronged you, and I understand the ability to overcome the hardest thing that has ever happened to you. Peace was a long awaited visitor that confirmed that he is in control, and when I doubt and there are things in life I just can’t figure out I have to have faith and trust that he is in control. This experiment of faith has been a big testimony builder it’s a test to see if I will follow through and really rely on him, also a first for me to completely rely on the lord I turned all of my heart ach over to him it was beyond my capability and no way could I proceeded on with life with out handing over all my troubles to the lord having faith that he would take care of them. And much to my surprise he took care of them! “Trust in the LORD with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths.” This was the scripture that was read in church and never has it hit me so hard, so until life is figured out I will not be trusting in myself but in a much higher power.



WARNING: This post may not make any sense and may be pure rambling? But sometimes you have to get things off you chest and that is what I like to call a blog 

BOOOOZER!!!

Is the name we heard over and over last night.Thats right people we went to the Jazz game. I had never been before,It was on my list of things to do before i die so Check off JAzz game! Bo got tickets form his work so we went and it was so much fun! The court was a lot smaller than on TV and its a lot more intense on TV, but I would have to say my favorite part was probably the Jazz Bear he is Hilarious and so talented unfortunately I was not able to get my picture taken with him. Also the jazz jerseys and the drunken people were equally entertaining. The Jazz won and it was a great night!As you can Tell some are more die hard than others:)