Wednesday, March 31, 2010

Some thoughts

"Sucess is the ability to go from one failure to another with no loss of enthusiasm."- Einston Churchhill
Seriously may be the theme of my life
This one is posted in my math class I sometimes stare at it for long periods of time- math will do that to ya.
"Do not worry about your problems in mathematics, I can assure you mine are greater."
True that!Einstein True that!
and lastely
"Sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall togehter."
Have a wonderfully rainy Wednesday!

Monday, March 29, 2010

Becoming Bernice

This post is really for my sister Michelle who finds the humor in my life.
Allow me to introduce Bernice. (Name yet similar has been changed) I met Bernice the other night and she made me think a lot…. … Bernice is 35 single never been married only child, never left home without a parent, Bernice has natural mousy brown hair with about 3 inches of blond tips (from grow out) Bernice has two dogs (don’t recall what kind because I don’t know dogs) and lives in her parents basement, she works in the accounting dept. for the church all of her clothes consist of sister missionary material black, tights, black buckle doc Martins, plaid skirts etc. Bernice’s parents still pay for everything from her hair to her meals; Bernice hasn’t waxed her eyebrows since she was 20. She goes to bed every night at 9:00 if she stays up till 10 she is extremely tired the next day. Bernice has a very hard time speaking her mind or even knowing what she wants. Her mother and 65 year old aunt make all the decisions for her. Bernice has a hard time making friends and meeting her soul mate she has traveled long long distances to meet online acquaintances in the hope that they turn in to online soul mates. When I talked with Bernice her mother informed me the two of them would be traveling 8 hrs to Idaho on Saturday to meet another online friend who they had been talking to for four months. Bernice was going to wear her mother’s sweater with a broche on it to meet the man. When I asked her if she had been on a lot of vacations she said yes last month to Oregon for a funeral. I asked Bernice if she was going to school she said she didn’t have the money or energy, not sure what Bernice spent her money on but she was broke. I came home and told my mom I did not want to become Bernice, I explained that I never wanted to give up having ambitions and chase dead beat online boyfriends, don’t get me wrong there is nothing wrong with being older and not married, but when you loose yourself and goals and ambitions that’s when it becomes sad. I made her promise me she would kick me out at age 30.While Bernice is a lovely person she is so different from me. A life not lived to the fullest is a life not lived! There is so much to do and see and become, there is no time to waste being shy and living in your parent’s basement having other people decide your future. My mom reassured me I was to pretty to not be married by 25 (as mothers do) I hope Bernice meets her soul mate and finds her happiness, In the meantime I will be staying away from black Doc. Martins and livin life up! Best of luck to me and Bernice.

I tried to find a fitting picture for this post I entered Bernice into google images and this was the picture that came up...

yep that about sums it up :)

Wednesday, March 24, 2010

7 am class...

Needless to say I was one tired girl. I was trying so hard to keep my peepers open, and with only 4 people total in the class and, the only one who responses to the professor it’s a little difficult to not be seen sleeping, I think my professor has anxiety if i'm not looking directly at her reassuring her that I’m listening, and giving her feedback. But sometimes you just can't fight it! the evidence is in the notebook, I had a good laugh when I went back to read my notes and found my scribbles apparently your writing is not that legible when your eyes are half open? Who knew?

Just call me Crafty Cathy...

This is still a work in progress but her she is all made under 12 bucks!The after:

the after

Thursday, March 18, 2010

Letters to...

Dear Spring: Where are you? I miss you .Also if you see Sunshine and Tan tell them to come back too.
Dear Mail man: I would have never guessed that “I’m bringing sexy back” was your ring tone
Dear Bishop: I know we have a meeting next week please be gentle with a calling.
Dear eyes: please continue to stay open till May 14th
Dear brain: please don’t lapse we are almost there
Dear Australia: I’m coming!.... Next year!
Dear shabby Apple: Why are you so expensive? You know I could never spend that much on you, please provide me with a spring sale.
Dear Francisco: Please keep your eyes above my chest in Math class. If you do not choose to do this I will be forced to wear my puffy winter coat for the rest of the semester. Thank you.
Dear rascals: If you jump up on my car one more time, so help me - I will put you to sleep myself.
Dear Bec: I really love your new hair you’re a babe!
Dear: Utah drivers sorry for my in car yelling and throwing my hands in the air while mouthing “Moron!” You know I didn’t mean it.

Tuesday, March 16, 2010


Definition: Latino Richard Simmons on crack!
And frankly I can’t get enough! It always used to bother me when girls posted things about Zumba this and Zumba that yatta yatta and I never thought I would be posting about it yet here I am promoting! And confession I love it, I go to Zumba more than my own gym I actually have the motivation after night school to go! Don’t get me wrong though I am no dancer (I know shocking) I know my place it’s at the very back but towards the middle so I can still follow the instructor, but I avoid the mirror at all costs, caught a glimpse of myself once and yikes am I tall and awkward. I wouldn’t say “ Zumba has changed my life!” but I have had lots of fun and maybe just maybe I have become slightly more coordinated….maybe. If you get the chance try it, it will rock your world!
* I desperately want these pants and shoes.What would I do with them you ask??? Hhmmm I would salsa better, sway my hips more intensely, I could kick higher and run faster … most likely….probably… pretty much the possibilities are endless!

and also:

Friday, March 12, 2010

Happy Friday!

I'm going to give you a little Friday cheer and it comes in the form of this song
possibly one of my favorite songs ever!and you bet your bottom dollar this will be played at my wedding! now when you click play you just can't sit at your desk or home and listen you gotta get up and work it! start with a left head twitch then maybe a little shoulder rotation on each side now bust out an Ellen D. one two step...ah now your feelin it! I knew you would. Happy Friday! life is great!

Tuesday, March 9, 2010

Have you ever heard of...

Urban its this redic./ awesome site with the definition of your name I must say mine is pretty true ...enjoy :)
A person who is loving and caring. Loyal to everyone important in her life and is easy to forgive, but won't let someone walk all over her. She steals the heart of everyone she dates, because she is real. Very few girls often like this person, because they feel threatened or intimidated by her. She is also someone who people seem to obsess about without ever realizing it.
Simply put, Amys are a gift to the world. notorious for their astonishing good looks and captivating, irresistible charm, amys have been the center of many (if not most) a mans fantasies. Amys will haunt your dreams. The unfounded sexiness paired with the fiery, passionate personality is something no other living being could accurately replicate. Like Chinese on rice, males flock to amys, as they possess an other-worldly feminine power. Amys turned Lindsay Lohan lesbian, and Amy's possess the power to turn any homosexual male straight. A unique yet defining characteristic of Amys is their effortlessly superior sandwich-making abilities. if they cannot create delectable sandwiches, then, they are fakes. A commonly used phrase among Amys - "You can imitate, but you can't replicate".

the name derives from the French word "Ami" meaning friend, and the French word "Amee" meaning beloved. She is uncommenly loyal, and once friends with you will always be there for you, she has fierce morals, despises betrayal and rumours, and talking about people behind there backs. She is not usually liked by many, as many are threatened or intimadated by her goodwill, her intelligence and her uncommen good looks, however the ones that do like her will remain her very best of friends the whole way through. She forgives easily but never allows herself to be walked over. She is matura for her age and has a very wise way of thinking of things, she loves to laugh and will never be the last to have a joke. Sometimes she dumbs herself down to try and fit in by seeming a bit slow or dumber than she is. However she finds it increasingly frustrating when these people make a joke of it. As she knows thats not her. To the ones who truly know her though, they know this is not her and will never do this. She is a fierce, fierce friend, never the one to leave a friend hanging, alone, upset, angry and hates to fall out with them. She has big dreams, a big future ahead of her and had planned it out, but is trying not to think of that right now and focus on now, the present.

Friday, March 5, 2010

I’m not a break down kinda girl ..

I strongly dislike girls who whine and complain and eat ice cream all night and cried their eyes out because life was so aweful yatta yatta! C’mon ladies pick yourselfs back up ! I wouldn’t say I had a break down the other night just a “moment” if you will.And this moment was built up from the stresses of life and school .I had been up since 5:30 from school to work to work to cutting at the fire station (another post) to Weber State again (my new home). I had to watch a two hour lecture then take a test the next morning, except for Weber’s library closes at 11:00 which I only got to watch 1 hr of the lecture, stressed and overwhelmed I gathered my stuff and walked across campus and tripped/ slid on the cement and caught my self at the last minute, which is not unusual for me I am very clumsy it was the “moment” point when I looked around to see if anyone saw? A boy about 5 yards away looked back, I held up my hand up and said “I’m good” he asked are you sure? “ yep, totally in control” I tried really hard not to cry on my long climb back to my car I whispered to my self (with straight arms and tight fists) I can do this! I can do this… I am smart.. I am so smart … This is easy I can totally do this! I did well, no tears were shed ...but close. When I got home that night I was exhausted mentally physically everything .I read these verses in Mosiah :” Thus God has provided a means that man, through faith, might work mighty miracles; therefore he becometh a great benefit to his fellow beings.” There is a “Means” and I can do this and it will be a miracle to finish school  “ But if ye will turn to the Lord with full purpose of heart, and put your trust in him, and serve him with all diligence of mind, if ye do this, he will, according to his own will and pleasure, deliver you out of bondage.” Ok so I’m not in bondage but school is pretty close. In the words of my mother “It always seems worse than it is”
One last gem of inspiration that could only be provided by R Kelly- possibly the cheesiest song in American Rap culture but I love it !and yes I do often sing this to myself.

If anybody axe you who I am? Just stand up tall Look 'em in the face and say
I'm that star up in the sky
I'm that mountain peak up high
Hey, I made it
I'm the world's greatest
And I'm that little bit of hope
When my back's against the ropes
I can feel it
I'm the world's greatest!!!!!